After taking a much needed break, I’m back and getting all personal on you! The last couple of weeks have been fairly quiet for me. I have pretty much withdrawn from most forms of social media and have had no motivation to post anything, anywhere.
My last post was over a month ago just before I went to Paris. I had all these plans to collect content whilst I was away for future posts, but this never materialised. I just wasn’t feeling it. On return, I got really sick which put me out of action again, but that was two to three weeks ago. Since then I’ve struggled to get going again and create new posts.
It started to feel like the relationship with my blog was coming to an end.
In a time when we are able to buy influence, establishing yourself is harder than ever. I would never consider paying for followers or use an automated system to post on my behalf – that isn’t what this community is built on. However, it’s hard to not compare yourself to some of these ‘influencers’.
With so many people looking to make a living from being a instagram / youtube / blogging personality the market is saturated. And with so many ‘influencers’ looking for the biggest following and best opportunities it makes me wonder ‘what’s the point?’ in continuing. I guess its just frustrating how easy it seems these days.
Personally, I have never saw this blog as a business opportunity, I post content because I enjoy doing it. My growth has been steady, but organic which I’m proud of. Getting feedback on my posts keeps me motivated (I’m not talking about the ‘such an inspiration’ automated comments).
With growth I have had more and more people present opportunities to me, which is amazing – I feel honoured every time someone wants to work with me! However, I feel I have also have got caught up in this and have got lost along the way.
With a blog redesign on the horizon I recently went through my archived posts to correctly tag every post. It made me realise how much prouder I was of my content a year ago. I am generally happy with the direction my blog has been going in but I am always a lot more happier with a post I have put time and effort into creating naturally rather than working to a deadline or simply reviewing a product. There’s only so many times you can make hair products sound interesting.
I know I sound ungrateful but I’m really not. I’m just trying to find my feet in this community and put out content I can 100% get behind and be proud of. Rather than simply reviewing products I’m going to look for alternative ways to include them into posts which work for me.
The great thing is I can make my own rules. The time out has made me realise I need to stop comparing myself to others. I’m also going to select opportunities more carefully and not put myself under any unnecessary pressure to put out posts.
I’m still working through this slump but I hope to resume shortly… I have a few posts in the works!
Sometimes you just need a bit of me time.